Ever Since You've Gone

by La Bella Vita

Ever since you've gone
I've tried to hide the hurt
Putting on a smile
But inside it doesn't work

I can't escape the truth
The reality I've come to know
Within I am breaking
The hard exterior is just a show

I've created a shell around me
A wall, a defense
I am nothing but a joke full of
False pretense

I lie about how I am feeling
I keep up an act
It's second nature now
But I'm just stabbing myself in the back

I should face the pain
Deal with how I really feel
Get on with life and
Allow myself time to heal

But I am scared
Scared to really feel the pain
Call it a denial but
I'm putting on an act again